Lemonade Detox: Day 2 (Sunday)

We move house tomorrow. I thought I'd use detoxing from alcohol as a weight loss detox too. I'm scared about the move but we're moving in with two new people, and I hate new people seeing me eat so it should be even easier than normal. Plus if I can do this, prove to myself I can still do it, I'll start off in this new house on a good weight loss streak - though I don't want to jinx it, especially with stupid mental health people getting involved. Anyway, I'm thinking even though I lose weight slowly 5lbs should be achievable in 10 days.


I'm going to organise my room. I'm going to work on my thinspo book. Actually, I'll start that now. I need to get a job. I'll be doing my special study (read: dissatation). Do a private project. And just some personal work. If I'm busy I can't be eating much.


After I come off detox, I'm thinking either the 'liquids diet' with only fresh fruit and veg, or the spinach/philly (extra light) diet. Those are both good ones. Sweetcorn's not a bad idea, but I think i'll want something more savoury. We'll see. I will keep working at this though. I will achieve a beautiful wedding figure. I should probably make a counter down to the date when it's set.


I will be thin.
I will be thin.
I will be thin.


Stats for Lemonade Detox:
SW: 89lbs (6st 5lb)
GW: 84lbs (6 st)


I want to look like this:

.Perfection.

Through dreams and twigs that bleed darkly, I've returned to this place.

I remember how I wanted the art of emptiness, how words could fill me. Now away from those prying eyes and forceable fingers, I come back to show Seraphina how thin I can be. I remember how black coffee and cigarettes became an expression, how the Blue dragonflies and Cerulean butterflies lifted me, I remember what it feels like to watch numbers drop. I am here to bind myself in promise to thin. I am here to create beauty. 

Make me perfect, make me thin. 

Let me not forget the image I first saw as original perfection:

I associate you with Kessa, perfection in a person.
(The Best Little Girl in the World, Steven Levenkron)

"I will be thin and pure like a glass cup. Empty. Pure as light. Music. I move my hands over my body - my shoulders, my collarbone, my rib cage, my hip bones like part of an animal skull, my small thighs. In the mirror my face is pale and my eyes look bruised. My hair is pale and thin and the light comes through. I could be a lot younger than seventeen. I could be a child still, untouched."

~ Francesca Lia Block